Finally got a chance to type in yet another post. And reflecting upon it, it really is rather amazing the way God shows us hidden problems in our lives. Especially when you are in ministry for quite some time, it sometimes is easy to fall into complacency thinking you dun have much more for God to deal with.. I used to think I'm a very humble guy... Until He showed me my pride yesterday.
I had a bad corner at the top right tip of my ATM card for some time and I simply pasted Scotch-tape over it thinking it'll last. That tip tore again after a good few weeks and i pasted another. Now that was yesterday morning. I was late for work so I decided to grab a cab. However, to my dismay, the card was not accepted by the machine. So I got on the cab anywayand tried paying by nets. The machine could not detect it. Unwillingly but left with no choice, I used another that was supposedly strictly for my savings.
In the afternoon, I met Jane to go down to the bank during lunch to change the ATM card. When i got there, there was almost no queue and so I requested changing the card, halfway while that was done, I decided since I am there, may as well change my ever-evolving signature. And the process seem to take ages.
I am a person who loves simplicity. I do NOT like dificult and long processes. So already I was feeling tensed and uncomfortable. The next thing amused Jane greatly... I turned around to relax a little and Oh My Gosh... The queue behind me was very very very long. I got flustered and many thoughts ran through my mind like 'you held them back' or 'people are rushing'.
It made me so tensed that by the time I had to submit the new signature, my hand went hay-wired and i signed wrongly... In my mind... 'OH S**T!!' And that landed me on another long process whereby now they have to wait for a manager to come out and overwrite and yadayadayada. And people are whispering, I only need to do a small submission etc etc...
By the time I left the bank, the queue I was at (it was at the door, those where you ask for small enquiries before proceeding into the main queue) was far longer than the main queue, blocking almost the entire doorway. I was trembling... Jane even said I looked kinda fierce, like I was gonna get very aggressive.
This got me thinking. Why in the world did I get so flustered up? God whispered the word pride. I was afraid of what people would think of me taking so long. I was very self-conscious. Pride made me want to look good in front of others. And at that, I wondered, how may I change? Answer was far simpler than I imagined. Less of me and more of Him. Let God shine beyond me. Let Him be in control. To stop thinking of I me and myself and what my flesh wants and to think of Him He and what He wants. We come into the world without anything, we will definitely leave without physical things. Come to God just as you are.
I had a bad corner at the top right tip of my ATM card for some time and I simply pasted Scotch-tape over it thinking it'll last. That tip tore again after a good few weeks and i pasted another. Now that was yesterday morning. I was late for work so I decided to grab a cab. However, to my dismay, the card was not accepted by the machine. So I got on the cab anywayand tried paying by nets. The machine could not detect it. Unwillingly but left with no choice, I used another that was supposedly strictly for my savings.
In the afternoon, I met Jane to go down to the bank during lunch to change the ATM card. When i got there, there was almost no queue and so I requested changing the card, halfway while that was done, I decided since I am there, may as well change my ever-evolving signature. And the process seem to take ages.
I am a person who loves simplicity. I do NOT like dificult and long processes. So already I was feeling tensed and uncomfortable. The next thing amused Jane greatly... I turned around to relax a little and Oh My Gosh... The queue behind me was very very very long. I got flustered and many thoughts ran through my mind like 'you held them back' or 'people are rushing'.
It made me so tensed that by the time I had to submit the new signature, my hand went hay-wired and i signed wrongly... In my mind... 'OH S**T!!' And that landed me on another long process whereby now they have to wait for a manager to come out and overwrite and yadayadayada. And people are whispering, I only need to do a small submission etc etc...
By the time I left the bank, the queue I was at (it was at the door, those where you ask for small enquiries before proceeding into the main queue) was far longer than the main queue, blocking almost the entire doorway. I was trembling... Jane even said I looked kinda fierce, like I was gonna get very aggressive.
This got me thinking. Why in the world did I get so flustered up? God whispered the word pride. I was afraid of what people would think of me taking so long. I was very self-conscious. Pride made me want to look good in front of others. And at that, I wondered, how may I change? Answer was far simpler than I imagined. Less of me and more of Him. Let God shine beyond me. Let Him be in control. To stop thinking of I me and myself and what my flesh wants and to think of Him He and what He wants. We come into the world without anything, we will definitely leave without physical things. Come to God just as you are.
2 comments:
Ah its soo brave of u bro!To step up in faith and be soo truthful!U have been such a wonderful bro!Thanks for all the encouragement and support you have showered me!Anyway get a shout box or something..if not i will post a comment in each post u write..wahahaha...God loves u..so do i!
saying hi :)
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